Less than six months….
It seems surreal to think I’m almost at the end of this journey. Well, this part of the journey.
In 4 months and a handful of weeks/days I’ll be going through the usual scans and then visiting both my surgeon and oncologist, and all things going well, I’ll get my get out of jail card.
Did you notice I didn’t say free?
Yeah, I might get the all clear you’re cancer free and ‘cured’ news but I’m not free. I still need to have yearly checkups and be aware. Which is fine, don’t get me wrong, it’s more than fine, but holy hell it might be just me or it might be normal in my situation, but it’s still hanging over me.
Like a dark cloud.
This feeling may change after August.
It may change when I stop taking the meds – along with all the side affects I’ve been living with for nearly five years.
F*ck I will not be sad to see those bitches go!
Life has been full, with Gbabies and holidays (we’re going on another one next week!) and catching up with family and friends. I’ve been writing up a storm. Lots of books coming this year and next.
I’m feeling more and less like my old self every day. Let me tell you, it’s a strange strange sensation.
I have to remind myself I won’t be the same. I can’t be the same. And that’s okay.
I just have to work out who I am now. Who I want to be going forward.
Each day is a new day and I’m grateful for every one of them.
We aren’t here for long. We should make the most of every minute that we are.
Even when shit goes down and things aren’t how you thought they would be.
Every day is a blessing. Make the most of every one you get.
xoxo
Rhian (who’s obviously feeling a bit emotional today…)