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Apparently it’s Wednesday?!
Or hump day. Either way, I’m late posting!
I have no excuse other than I forgot. Well, I didn’t forget, I remembered and thought ‘oh, I’ll do that later‘…..
This past week has sucked ass. I had a migraine that started out mild on Friday and I ‘thought’ I’d managed to avoid it getting worse by Friday night but at 3am Saturday it was so bad I staggered out of bed and headed for my migraine med. Within an hour I was blissfully migraine free and sound asleep.
Goddamn I love that little miracle pill!
Anyway, in recent months I’ve been having more migraines (I don’t want to say they’re related to the hormone meds but…..) and they’ve taken on a new form of torture. They’ve turned into what I’m calling a double whammy.
In the past I’ve gotten rid of a migraine by taking the magic pill. In recent months I take a pill the migraine goes then the next day it’s back. Twice as bad. (hence the double whammy title)
So Sunday morning I dragged myself out of bed again and swallowed the last of my miracle pills. Then, because I can’t survive without having those pills on hand I headed to the doctor to get a script. I haven’t seen my local doctor since before I was diagnosed with breast cancer so I had to relate the whole story then ask for the migraine med which I’d realized I’d never asked him for before. I’ve always gotten them from my doctor in Oz or my breast specialist.
He was cool though, talked about how this med was helping change peoples lives and I can attest to that. This tiny med has kept me from losing days to migraines over the last few years.
Script in hand I head off to the pharmacy. The first one says they’re out of stock (island wide!!) and won’t get any in until May. Okay, let’s head over there to that pharmacy….
“Sorry, we’re out. The pharma company that makes them won’t distribute more until May.”
But, but, but……
You have no idea the stress of not having those pills in the house is giving me. I’ve lasted three days with this unknown phenomenon and I’m done. Tomorrow I’m heading back to the doctor to see if there’s anything else I could have on hand because if the pattern is consistent (and why wouldn’t it be?) then I’ll get at least one more migraine, possibly two, before these meds are back in stock.
I can’t handle that. It’s like the last straw. Well, not really, but it kind of is.
I’m wondering why everything happens at once, you know?
Surely something should go my way. Sometime. Once!
Okay, fine, I’m probably being dramatic but I really REALLY hate the nausea that comes with my migraines. I can deal with the pain and I’m NOT a fan of pain, but the nausea….
Oh god. I won’t to vomit just thinking about it.
I’m blaming Covid. Because I know for a fact the pharma company that makes my miracle pill makes a Covid vaccine. I can only surmise everything else got shoved aside for that vaccine. And why wouldn’t I think that? It seems logical to me.
Then again, I’m suffering from potential migraine threat. Actually, it’s not a threat, it’s a promise. I’m getting them far too often to think I’ll go without one between now and stock availability.
Anyway, let’s not stress about that any more. I’ve got a plan to ‘hopefully’ find something that will be a good(ish) replacement. Not much else I can do, right?
Other than the migraine, I’ve been okay. I’m still a little fatigued but not to the point that it’s keeping me from doing things. Although I am taking things easy. I could probably be taking it too easy but it’s not like I’m in bed and not showering. That’s a good thing, right?
Speaking of showering, have I mentioned how much easier it is to wash my hair now? No? Well let me tell you how f*cking amazing it is to be able to wash my hair without having to stop every 30 seconds or contort myself to get my right hand over to the left side of my head. I love my new cut for that alone. I can’t make it look anywhere near as good as Aaron did but I’m thrilled with how light it feels when down or up and the whole washing it thing is brilliant!
I don’t dread it or put it off like I have been. It’s another miracle! 😆
Oh, hey! Something is going right! I’m mastering personal grooming with ease again.
I guess that’s a milestone.
Thursday is another milestone.
The 31st marks 7 months since my operation.
It seems like a lifetime ago. Another life.
Then again, it kind of was another life. I can split my life into two parts.
BC (before cancer)
AC (after cancer)
This is the AC me. She’s different than the BC me.
I just haven’t fully worked out AC me yet.
It’s a long road. I guess I just have to keep walking it to see where it leads me.