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Distractions are distracting.
I’m a day late posting because I have this gorgeous new Gbaby to cuddle and a billion-and-one other Gbabies who need MeMa’s attention.
Gbabies are very distracting. I could spend hours (I have spent hours) with them. And after a few years of missing that new baby smell I’ve been making the most of it with Xavier.
Unfortunately, my bags are packed and I’m boarding a plane tomorrow morning to head back to Singapore. Once I get there I won’t have all these wonderful distractions to take my mind of the milestones this months has.
Biopsies, diagnosis, operation.
They all happened in August.
I’m not sure how I’m feeling about it yet.
Maybe I’ll never be sure.
Maybe I don’t have to know at all.
It is what it is and I’m grateful to almost be at the 1 year cancer free mark.
That’s a big thing, right?
Surely I should feel something other than numb about it.
Maybe I will by next week.
I guess we’ll find out then.
For right now I’m going to try to pretend that after tomorrow I won’t have to wait until Christmas to get me some Gbaby snuggles.
Eileen AW says
So glad you were able to be there for Xavier’s birth and got all those gbaby cuddles. Gbaby cuddles are the best!! Think forward, not backwards as there is nothing you can so about changing the past.